The Script - Long Gone and Moved On

When's the day you start again
And when the hell does you'll get over it begin
I'm looking hard in the mirror
But I don't fit my skin 
It's too much to take 
It's too hard to break me
From the cell I'm in

Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It's time to get a real

Cause I still don't know how to act 
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone
But I still don't know where the start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday 
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on

So how'd you pick the pieces up yeah
I'm barely used to saying me instead of us
The elephant in the room keeps scaring of the guests
It gets under my skin to see you with him
And it's not me that you're with

Oh from this moment on
I'm changing the way I feel yeah
From this moment on
It's time to get a real

Cause I still don't know how to act 
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone
But I still don't know where the start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday 
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on

No I can't keep thinking that you're coming back .. No
Cause I got no business knowing where you're at .. No
And it's gonna be hard yeah
Cause I have to wanna heal yeah
And it's gonna be hard yeah
The way I feel that I have to get real


I still don't know how to act 
Don't know what to say
Still wear the scars like it was yesterday
But you're long gone and moved on
Cause you're long gone
But I still don't know where the start, still finding my way
Still talk about you like it was yesterday 
But you're long gone and moved on
But you're long gone, you moved on

But you're long gone, you moved on
Eh eh, oh oh
Eh eh, oh oh
But you're long gone, you moved on

The Script - Breakeven

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
just praying to a God that I don't believe in
'cause I got time while she got freedom 
'cause when a heartbreaks no it don't break even

her best days will be some of my worst 
she finally met a man that's gonna put her first
while I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
'cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even ... even ... no

what am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you
and what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces 

they say bad things happen for a reason
but no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
'cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even ... even ... no


what am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you
and what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces 
(one still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
you took your suitcase, I took the blame
now I'm try'na make sense of what little remains ooh
'cause you left me with no love and no love to my name


I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
just praying to a God that I don't believe in
'cause I got time while she got freedom 
'cause when a heartbreaks no it don't break
no it don't break
no it don't break even no




what am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you
and what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
(oh glad your okay now)
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
(oh I'm glad your okay)
I'm falling to pieces 
(one still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('cause when a heart breaks no it don't break even)



oh it don't break even no
oh it don't break even no
oh it don't break even no

Begitu Bodohnya Diriku :'(

Kamu bilang ke aku kalau saat itu kamu bakal dateng dan itu benar ... Aku melihat sosok tubuhmu disana yang lagi kumpul sama temen-temenmu :')
Aku mencoba memperhatikanmu lebih lama supaya kamu bisa sadar kalau aku menunggumu disini. Lalu aku berbalik badan untuk kembali ke kelas sebentar untuk mengerjakan sesuatu. Tanpa disadari saat aku keluar dari kelas, kamu muncul dengan tiba-tiba dan membuat diriku hilang kendali. Bodohnya, bukannya aku memanggilmu dan menyapamu, aku pun langsung berlari ke arah temen-temenku dengan suasana hati yang bergejolak enggak karuan. Lalu aku masuk ke kelas yang lain dan keluar lagi sambil melihat sosok tubuhmu yang mulai menjauh :'(
Aku tahu kalau pasti kamu enggak tahu, kalau yang sebenernya lari-lari di depanmu itu adalah aku. Aku begitu malu untuk menyapamu. Ya Allah, kenapa aku begitu bodoh sih ?
Seneng rasanya bisa melihatmu tapi sakit banget rasanya karena aku enggak bisa ngobrol berdua denganmu. Mungkin suatu saat, kalau ada waktu yang tepat kita bisa kenal lebih dekat lagi :))

Taylor Swift - Enchanted

Hei guys, udah lama aku gak nulis di blog hehe
Tapi saat ini aku lagi pengen nulis lagu yang aku lagi suka sekarang
Lagu ini aku persembahkan buat seseorang diluar sana :)
This is it ...


There I was again tonight, forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old, tired place lonely place
Walls of insincerity, shifting eyes and vacancy
Vanished when I saw your face

All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Your eyes whispered, "Have we met?" across the room, your silhouette
Starts to make its way to me
The playful conversation starts, counter all your quick remarks
Like passing notes in secrecy

And it was enchanting to meet you
All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

The lingering question kept me up, 2 a.m., who do you love?
I wonder 'til I'm wide awake
Now I'm pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door
I'd open up and you would say

It was enchanting to meet you
All I know is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

This is me praying that

This was the very first page, not where the storyline ends
My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again
These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

Can I happy ? :')

Yaaah, kesenangan apa sih yang kurang dalam diriku ? Banyak orang - orang yang selalu buat aku senang dan tersenyum, entah itu dari sahabat- sahabatku, orang tua, dll. Tapi aku merasa kebahagianku belum sempurna. Ingin aku mendapat kebahagian dari seseorang yang benar - benar tulus dan sayang sama aku. Where is he ? Can I happy with someone who I love ? :')

That's made me so MAD!

Beberapa hari belakangan ini, yang namanya marah, jengkel, sedih dan semuanya, bertumpuk jadi satu, dan semua itu enggak bisa aku handel dengan baik. Makanya, banyak temen-temenku yg kena "semprot" dari aku #lagi hoooh 
Yaah, masa-masa remaja yang lagi labil seperti ini memang yang namanya temperamental seseorang susah diaturnya, termasuk aku =____=
Mungkin ini terjadi karena abis UKK yang bikin aku stress berat dan ada orang yang bikin aku jengkel setengah mati. Engga bakal aku sebut namanya karena ini privasi #eaaa. Aku engga tau ini keberuntungan atau bukan, tapi aku bener-bener gak terima. Maaf sebelumnya :)
Seminggu yang lalu, telah dilaksanakan UKK (Ujian Kenaikan Kelas) untuk SMA. Itu bener-bener bikin kepala cenat-cenut -,- Aku berusaha mati-matian belajar dan ngerjain soal-soal semaksimal mungkin, tapi yang namanya "nyontek" engga pernah bisa aku hindarin hehe.
Tapi klo nyontek yang berlebihan dan kemudian mendapatkan nilai yang melebihi orang yang dicontek, itu engga bisa dibiarin aja! Aku bener-bener sakit hati gara-gara itu. Sehari kemarin aku nangis karena melihat nilaiku yang lebih jelek daripada orang yang nyontek aku. Aku yang udah berusaha ngerjain sendiri, ternyata malah kurang. Tapi yang nyonteknya engga ketulungan,dapet nilai yang luar biasa.
Yaah, karakter orang memang beda-beda. Aku bisa memakluminya kok :')
Seminggu kedepan ini, aku lagi nunggu pembagian raport. Semoga dewi fortuna berpihak kepadaku :)
Insya allah, semua cobaan yang aku hadapi sekarang, akan menjadi suatu pelajaran yang berharga bagiku. Dan kegagalan ini, kelak nantinya akan menjadi kesuksesan buatku di masa depan :')
Amin Ya Robbal Alamin ...

Laguku Saat Galau #Part 1

enggak tau kenapa, akhir-akhir ini aku lagi seneng sama lagu ini :')
lagu yang bener-bener gambarin isi hati aku sekarang ..


Vierra - Terlalu Lama

sudah lama ku menanti dirimu
tak tahu sampai kapankah
sudah lama kita bersama-sama
tapi segini sajakah

entah sampai kapan
entah sampai kapan

hari ini ku akan menyatakan cinta
nyatakan cinta
aku tak mau menunggu terlalu lama
terlalu lama

sadarkah kau  ku adalah wanita
aku tak mungkin memulai
sadarkah kau, kau menggantung diriku
aku tak mau menunggu

entah sampai kapan
entah sampai kapan

hari ini ku akan menyatakan cinta
nyatakan cinta
aku tak mau menunggu terlalu lama
terlalu lama

hari ini ku akan menyatakan cinta
nyatakan cinta
aku tak mau menunggu terlalu lama
terlalu lama

hari ini ku akan menyatakan cinta
nyatakan cinta
aku tak mau menunggu terlalu lama
terlalu lama ...

Pelampiasan -,-

eits .. jangan mikir macem-macem dulu yaa
pelampiasan .. bisa dibilang demikian tpi enggak juga sih hahaha


yah, 2 hari terakhir ini aku bawaannya pengen maraah truuus, misuh-misuh rak jelas
engga tau sebabnya apa, mungkin bisa juga karena  faktor pms atau yg lain
entah apa, aku enggak ngerti -,-
banyak temen-temenku yg kena kemarahanku yg engga jelas #maap yak :')
yaah begitulah, tapi akhirnya kemarahan itu reda juga hahaha


sekali lagi maap yaak teman-temanku yg baik dan budiman :D #eaa

Taylor Swift - Innocent

Yang belum mengerti arti dari lagu ini, tolong lebih dimengerti dan dicerna dengan baik!
This is one of my favourite song.

I guess you really did it this time
Left yourself in your warpath
Lost your balance on a tightrope
Lost your mind trying to get it back

Wasn't it easier in your lunchbox days?
Always a bigger bed to crawl into
Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything?
And everybody believed in you?


It's alright, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been
Your still an innocent
Your still an innocent


There's somethings you can speak off
But tonight you'll live it all again
You wouldn't be shattered on the floor now
If only you would sing what you know now then


Wasn't it easier in your firefly catching days?
And everything out of reach, someone bigger brought down to you
Wasn't is beautiful running wild 'til you fell asleep?
Before the monsters caught up to you?


It's all right, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been
You're still an innocent


It's okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growing up now
Who you are is not what you did
You're still an innocent


Time turns flames to embers
You'll have new Sepetembers
Everyone of us has messed up too
Live change like the weather
I hope you remember
Today is never too late to be brand new


It's all right, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been
You're still an innocent


It's okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growing up now
Who you are is not what you did
You're still an innocent


Lost your balance on a tightrope
It's never too late to get it back

Killing Me Inside - Let It Go

I try so hard to make you mine but its so hard
You said that you just wanted me and I'm not sure

But you don't care you make me so down
Don't try to hide with everything we got
So I'll take my time to get you now
I know you'll never understand
So I'll take my time to get you now
I know you'll never understand

You take your way when everything feel's wrong
Tonight will never end, just let it go
You take your way when everything feel's wrong
Tonight will never end

I took a change
I took a fall yes I was blind
And now I see everything was gone, just let it go


But you don't care you make me so down
Don't try to hide with everything we got
So I'll take my time to get you now
I know you'll never understand
So I'll take my time to get you now
I know you'll never understand

You take your way when everything feel's wrong
Tonight will never end, just let it go
You take your way when everything feel's wrong
Tonight will never end

Just let it go, I tell you now
Just walk away and don't look back
Just let it go, I tell you know
Just walk away and don't look back
Don't look back


You take your way when everything feel's wrong
Tonight will never end, just let it go
You take your way when everything feel's wrong
Tonight will never end

You take your way when everything feel's wrong
Tonight will never end, just let it go
You take your way when everything feel's wrong
Tonight will never end

06.05.2011 :)

Yesterday it was my birthday. It was very awesome. I couldn't forgotten it.

Pagi hari, ada peltam fisika (males bangeet -,-). aku berangkat pagi banget sambil bawa kue brownies 2 kardus buat anak-anak Fourins. Tau sendiri laah, mereka semua kan suka makan, jadi aku bawain kue deh buat mereka hahaha
Setelah selesai peltam, aku langsung bagiin kue itu buat mereka. Mereka semua seneng banget. Sisa kuenya aku kasihin buat wali kelasku. Semua anak langsung tepuk tangan buat aku. Terharu deeh :') Satu per satu mereka pada nyalamin aku, seneng deh rasanya.
Tak terasa pelajaran hari itu udah selesai. Aku gak sabar buat ngrayain ultahku, onyet dan ovi sama temen-temen Pulpith (berasa reuni deeh :D) Kami semua kumpul dulu di sekolah sambil nunggu temen-temen yang lain. Sekitar pukul 13.00 WIB, kami pun segera menuju onyet's house. Kami pun berkumpul di lantai 2 rumah onyet. Rame bangeet deeh.
Tak menunggu lama, kami bertiga pun menyiapkan kue tart yang udah di kasih angka 17. Lilin pun dinyalakan. Anak-anak yang lain menyanyikan lagu selamat ulangtahun. Senengnyaah :')

(made a wish and blew it)

(cut the cake w/ them)

 Kue kami potong dan dibagikan ke semua anak hingga tak bersisa. Dengan ditemani sepotong kue tart dan semangkok bakso (nyem nyem :9) kami bercanda dengan satu sama lain, sambil mengingat masa-masa kelas 10 dulu yang gokil gilaaa. Asyiik deeh :)

senyum ceriaa :)

Hari itu tak akan pernah aku lupakan sampai kapanpun. Thanks for all guys. And thanks for your presents and others. I love you so muuch :*

This is my birthday's story. Thanks for read it :)


THE END

Lawakan Gila :D

menuju koperasi ..

Ardi : mba, aku mau beli teh kami
Mbaknya koperasi : teh kami ? #bingung
Ardi : itu loh teh kita!
Mbaknya koperasi : --"

sekian 

Bla Bla Bla Blaa -_-

sebenernya aku pengen nulis tapi engga ada inspirasi sama sekali -,-
tau dah kenapa ..
mungkin karena cuaca lagi mendung, hawanya pengen tidur aja hahaha
so, ini aja unek-unekku hari (gak penting banget)
aku akan posting sesuatu yang lebih berguna untuk kalian nanti
sayounara :D

From the first time ...

Aku tahu, pertama kali aku melihatmu ada hal yang berubah dalam diriku
entahlah ..
Aku merasa aneh setiap berpapasan denganmu, seperti ada sesuatu yang memaksaku untuk mendekatimu dan berbicara banyak denganmu
Tetapi aku membantahnya ..
Ketika aku melihatmu, berharap kau akan melirikku, meskipun hanya sekilas
Tetatpi kau tidak bereaksi sama sekali
I knew now ...
Karena aku hanya sekadar mengagumimu .. dan tak lebih dari itu :)